| 03-17-08 Becoming a Child |
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OUR CHARISM
March 17, 2008 "Becoming a Child" I will share my own experience of healing in the womb. God probably could have done it any time in my life but He chose to bring it up just as He was calling me out of the cloister. I have often wondered why He waited so long. What was there about the timing? It is exactly what I was just sharing. It is because some of those hurts way back then, will affect the way we are going to act out a certain pattern in our lives. He was now calling me out of the cloister. He was going to be calling me into leadership, into public speaking, into a lot of things I had no idea He was going to be calling me into. And so in order for me to be able to be His instrument, He had to heal me of this terrible inferiority complex that I had. Why I had it I did not know. But I knew that I absolutely would hyperventilate if I even had to get up and open my mouth in front of anybody - even in the cloister. We had to get up and read part of the Divine Office. Oh I thought I was going to die a thousand deaths. You know how it is. You are gasping for air, your heart is pounding. He had to heal me of that and He did it a beautiful way. He did it right before the cloister released me. It was done simply through prayer. He let me understand something that happened in the womb. Only God can do this. He can take you right there and tap into that deep memory and you remember everything because you are having the experience again or He is simply releasing an experience that is still very present and very vivid and He brings it to light. These are the types of things that God may show you. He knows that those little experiences that we have back there, can affect our entire lives. They can set the pattern for how we act and react. If a person, for example, has always felt unlovable, has always been restless or fearful, the need for inner healing probably goes all the way back to the very earliest years of life. Someone may ask you, "Well when did this begin?" And you may think, "I do not know. I have always been like this." If you ever have had that for an answer, it probably goes back to something that is in the unconscious, the subconscious. The purpose of these teachings and these group-sharings over the next few weeks is to try to set forth a very simple method, a simple way, for us to discover together, the healing power of Jesus. Together we want to begin to experience the process of changing negative attitudes and feelings into positive responses. We want to begin to learn how, first of all, to recognize and understand our weaknesses and how to allow them to become really creative forces in our lives. Paul understood this. "When I am weak, then I'm strong." That is a grace. That is something which we have to begin experiencing -how, out of weakness, we become strong and we can praise God for it. And how this can become a creative force in our lives. The very weakness itself can become a creative force in our life.
This process that we want to go through in the next few weeks will hopefully enable us to gain a healthier self knowledge, self image, and realize a greater sense of our true worth, who we really, really are. We hope that this will also help us to develop deeper sensitivity to one another and to the others with whom God will call us to pray and share.
Jesus makes available to each of us the gift of freedom. This is what inner healing is all about - freedom from negative emotions and attitudes, freedom that would prevent us from being the child, from loving spontaneously and joyously, from really being the person we are created to be. Inner healing is a process of reconstructing our emotions so that we can use them correctly. This is done under the guidance and inspiration of the Holy Spirit. We are made to love. The Spirit wants to set our hearts free to love, to love, to love - to love and never count the cost. That is frightening for an adult, but not for a child. That is what inner healing is all about - becoming a child. |
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